- Enjoyment & Work -

Mon, 10.11.08- 9am morning went to condo to find dar dar n my bro..we went swimming..^^..dunno how many years din swim d but thank god i still noe how to swim..it's fun to b in the water..acted like siao ghina..luckily dere r nobody else in the pool..

After went lunch with brandon, my bro n dar dar..ate "bak kut teh"..yum yum.^^..after dat me n brandon went to redbox..coz my bro n dar dar wanna go paktor..so both of us went to "pak tor" at redbox..sang from 2pm till 4+pm..yaw shing came to fetch me..n we had a party at yaw shing's place..played truth or dare game..knew lots of stuff..haha..but cant reveal..had a great nite..^^


Wed,11.11.08- Secret Recipe's 1 year once year promotion- Buy 1cake free 1 cake..woke up early n went to Q-up with Brandon..dere's a long Q..we waited for 2hours onli get to buy the cake..@.@..we bought Choc indulgence n Oreo Cheesecake..^^..

we both r so broke d..we walked to pyramid n walked back..when we reach brandon's new hs..the lift is out of service..!!wat??!!!brandon's hs is at 9th floor..@.@..both of us nearly fainted..we r takin 2 big cakes drinks n spagetti ingredience..@.@..but we oso climbed up to 9th floor..while climbin up brandon nonstop @#$**&^&%^%$#)(*&^%#$...hahaha..so damn funny..after dat we took lunch in Medan..brandon's rice cost him RM10..@.@..he took a mountain of rice n side dishes..hungry n tired till ar...we went back to hostel to hv a rest but i end up sleepin n din help up brandon to move into his new hs..so sad..luckily brandon din kill me..hahaha..we met up at 6.30pm n walked to brandon's hs together..we started to cooked..precisely it's me n brandon cookin onli..but end up i'm the 1 who's cookin..@.@..but felt quite satisfied..dat's my 1st spagetti dat i hv made by myself..while we r cookin..brandon's "da chang jing" n i'm "lian sheng"..so damn funny..nonstop acting..life with brandon will b nonstop acting..lots of fun..after spagetti we started eating our Secret Recipe cakes...wow wow..delicious..^^..next,will b our Joker n batman game..hehe..we enjoyed playing it..en shyang's word of the day.."U hv the guilty look!!"..hahaha..played another game..but dunno wat's the name..n kena perli..english bad..hahaha..it's sea gull not sea bird..direct translation from chinese..(yiii....ppl dunno how to spell mer..>.<..haha)..n brandon succefully made us laugh again..Sungai Wang..i still remember his face..cant talk but hv to try to let us guess "Sungai Wang"..hahaha..it was a fun nite..^^

Wed, 12.11.08- After havin fun..it's time to pack..wanna go back penang d..took the whole nite to pack..din manage to bring everythin back oso..coz over 15kg d..it's abt 30kg..@.@..i reali do hv lots of things to bring back..@.@..so i decided to bring those things dat r needed onli..mayb next time onli bring back d..took taxi to Subang airport with my bro dar dar n yingxuan..our flight's at 6.45am..we went dere earlier to check in..our luggages exceed the weight limit..@.@..luckily we found 2 kind man to help us check in the luggage..n we didn't nd to pay extra money..n we reached hm safely..my bro decided to slp for the whole day..n i went to pray with my dad n continue to work in my dad's shop..from 11.30am till 9.30pm...reali tired till walk oso can slp d..din slp for 2 nights d..reali so damn tired..after work i went back n straightly K.O till the next mornin 10am..

Thu, 13.11.08-like wat i've planned, i hv to work..coz super damn broke d..@.@..now i'm still working..kinda bored..but i still like marketing..haha..n i can help up my dad..can earn money as well..^^..but still feel tired..coz sick d..@.@..

- Lovely Monday Morning 2 -

Hmm..seems like i'll hv good mood on monday morning..^^
yesterday i slept at 10+pm..
healthy lifestyle..haha..
woke up at 6am..
later goin to swim at 9am..
hoho..swimming..ages din swim d..
should b fun..haha..
soon goin back to Penang d..
suddenly miss KL..
like dere r still lots of places dat i din go yet..
gonna come back during holidays..
Good Morning to every1..^^
have a nice day..^^

- Genting Trip + 3days diary -

hmm...where should i start from...
the day b4 genting trip..i din slp at all..@.@..
6.11.08(fri) 7am met up with brandon n other members at sidegate n started our genting trip..we all rushed to KL sentral but we r late for 5minutes..
the bus left..@.@..so we took LRT to Gombak..
we took some photos in LRT n while we r waiting for the bus to Genting..
brandon is such a gd actor n joker..
love him so much..
but i noe he don love me..
watever...
uploaded lots of his funny pics..
n hv to mention abt his Armani Exchange jacket..
u can c him wearin the jacket in my genting trip pics..
we took the cable car n it happend dat the cable car stopped at the middle of the journey..@.@..everybody screamed like we r goin to hell..
n it happended dat so lucky...my bro miss pressed the video button n took the video..
it was so damn hilarious..n again..brandon successfully bcame the main actor..
(if i hv the chance i'll upload it in facebook..)
but we manage to reach Genting safely..
we went to the themepark n started to hv fun..
but turned out dat i'm havin dis stupid mood swing thingy..
n some1 kena my Boom n bcame my Genting trip victim..
i'm so mean n bad...
felt so sorry for him..
but still din say sorry yet..@.@
(if he din stepped on my tail i wont treat him like dat..oo..the tail i hv is a pig tail not wolf tail..hahaha)...
but i still admit dat it's my fault..coz i ruined my own mood n his mood..
i'm so so sorry..
back to the story..we din play much..coz it rained..
we Q up n played go kart..it's so memorable..coz we wore shower caps..@.@
the helmet is so damn freaking smelly..*fainted*..
we took pics with it oso..oh gosh..we look like mario...
n while i'm drivin..i "selfpic-ed"..@.@..dangerous driver..
eventually we managed to play 3 games onli..
i think i played 2 onli..
den we went to play indoor games d..
bumper car was fun..we played 3times..
we dinned in Kenny Rodgers..
n watched "Quantum of Solace" at 9.30pm..
i was so damn tired n i slept in the cinema..
i missed the opera part..@.@..(guess i'll watch again)
after the movie while we r walkin back to the hotel..
it was so so so damn cool...n my feet hurts alot..
should'nt hv wear the sharp headed shoes..isshhh..>.<
we reach our room at 11pm+..
after bathed i slept for 1hour..
12+pm woke up n the crazy part of Genting starts from here..
went to the next door n played murderer game & card games..
we started drinkin..shots..@.@
pure alcohol..
after some shots every1 started to get "high" d..
all of sudden we started our photo session n dance session..
everybody starts to dance n snap pics nonstop..
i managed to snap some videos too..
hahahaha..
i don remember i drank how much d oso..
dere r 3bottles of alcohol n i think we finished it all..@.@
i'm the last 4th who K.O dat nite..
but i did stupid things n things i shouldn't do when i'm drunk..
shit!..regretted so much..haihz...1st time..@.@
n i sent i love u msg to some ppl..@.@..
when i'm sendin i think i'm happy..hahaha..
feelin like jz do watever i wanna do..
but i reali mean it..
if u received my msg means i'm reali in love with u..
hahaha..if i don send u doesn't mean i don love u..
coz i din look thru the whole phonebook..
i jz pick pick den send..
reali drunk..
i sent some1 a more customized msg..
n some1 get my fon call...haha..
sorry to those ppl dat received my i love u msg, customized msg n oso fon call..
sorry for the disturb..but i mean it..hehe..^^
anyway i slept at 5am..n it happend dat i cant get back into my room..T.T
they locked the door..T.T
so i slept with other 8ppl in the room..

[7.11.08(fri)]..when i woke up at 7am+..ppl bside me r different from wat i've remembered last nite b4 i slept..when i woke up chryst slept at my left n grace's at my right..@.@
i rememberd b4 i slept stella's at my left n gennie's at my right..@.@
oo..caught a headache when i woke up..
n still dizzy dizzy..@.@..
so damn duo luo..feeling like a bit "zhuo jian" myself..@.@
we went to breakfast at old town..
after packing our things we left genting..
took lunch at Setapak..
Setapak is so damn HOT!!@.@
sunway's not dat HOT oso..@.@
i went back to Uni with John coz Ah Kan phonned me n ask for my help in findin 1 book..luckily monash hv the book he wanted..
went to Shogun with penang group ppl for dinner..
mayb i'm too tired n exhausted d..no appetite..
din eat much..summore vomitted..@.@
so damn not worth it..
i din even ate RM20..n i paid RM67..
so damn wasted..so damn regret i've went dere..
wasted my parent's money..T.T
n i'm so broke now..T.T
went to watch "High School Musical 3" at 9.30pm..
again...i've slept for a while in the cinema..@.@
although i've drank 3 cups of coffee..but it doesn't reali help up lots..
but luckily the coffee manage to make me stay awake n watch 4/5 of the movie..
haha..(not takin care of my health at all..i'll die soon)
reached hostel at 12+pm..
but i din slp although i'm so damn tired d..
cant slp..T.T
n i phonned my fren..ended i cried..T.T..
haihz..reali mood swing season d..
i cant control my mood..
n i'm doin all kinds of bad n mean things to ppl around me..
acting so "bah bai"(cantonese)..
picky n choosy..easily get frustrated..
so ego n self-centered..
havin the love me or hate me stupid attitude..
wat's wrong with me??
i'm totally out of control d..T.T
i'm so mean n bad..i doubt myself dat actually dat's the real me but i'm jz acting gd
i'm jz a nobody in dis society..acting like a mean girl..@.@
if i'm still in dis unstable condition when i'm back in penang..
i guess i'll hv to consult a psychologist d..
reali sick d..
mental sickness..
but no worries..i wont kill myself..
jz dat i'll treat myself reali bad..n i noe it..
but i'm still doin it..
drink, don slp early, don hv enough rest, don eat in time..doin bad things to ppl(bad karma bad karma)
i'll die soon..
ppl..pls scold me when u c me..

[8.11.08(sat)]..i woke up at 5pm..@.@
went to 1-Utama..
n hv my 1st meal of the day at Pastazanmai..
the unagi pasta's so damn delicious..
after dat went to Jerry's hs watched Arsenal VS MU..
Arsenal won..2-1..
MU fans dere were so frustrated..MU missed quite some chances to goal..
n my bro's the happiest d..coz he's Arsenal fans..
they played poker n black jack..
we got back to hostel at 2am+..
n thanks to Daniel..brought us around..
n now..it's 7.30am d..
i'm uploadin Genting Trip's photos in facebook..
if u wanna c it add me in facebook..(Sarah Lin Bik Yun)
i'll upload all the pics dere n some in friendster..
u can c how crazy we are..
this is a long post..
thanks for readin it..
haha..
i'll b back tmr..
hehe..^^

- Sleep ZzzZz -

Sleep...
i wanna slp..
i love slpin alots...
i wanna b like normal ppl slp at nite..
don wanna continue vampire life d...
cannot slp at nite...T.T
so sad...
later goin to genting d lor...
excited?
kinda...
tired?
yea...
not feeling well?
yea..
hopefully everythin will turns out to b fun..
snap lots of pics for sure..^^
gtg pack things d..
genting trip..
wonder when's my next trip?
cameron?(still cant find ppl..@.@)
ChaoZzz...
good nitez...
slp tight..
sweet dreams..^^
love u..

- Sick Sick d -

sick sick d...
feeling hin hin d...
feeling bu shuang d...
issshhhh..>.<
listenin to hao xiang hao hao ai ni...
havin different feeling...
it's raining heavily outside...
the feelin jz suits the song so much...
i still love the song alots...
i guess this song should b 1 of my favourite song d..
ppl say..when ya sick...u'll get more love sick..
n yea...it's true...
havin love sick now..
wondering how gd will it b if dere's some1 bside me to take care of me..
ooo...dreaming..
slp more n drink more water will cure d...
anyway...not in a gd mood dis few days..
mood swing +...
my facebook daughter grow up d..
not that pretty n cute d...
so damn sad...T.T...
but son still good looking...haha..
it's not easy to b a single mother..
hv to work hard to earn more money to feed my children...
haha..
feeling tired d....
wanna hv a rest d..
ZzzZz

- Mood Swing -

now emo-in d...
these few days reali havin serious mood swing...
compared to the previous post...
u can c how horrible is my mood swing...
act i'm not feelin well...
sick d..@.@
yesterday din slp whole nite..
burn midnite oil for marketing paper..
the paper was ok but i don hv enough time to finish it up..T.T
haihz...
anyway everythin's over d..
finished my exams d..
now havin 4months holidays..
wat a long holidaysssss..
don like the feeling of falling sick...
sickness do come in package don they?
headache+flu+cough+love sick...
emo~~~~
woke up realise now reali very poor d...
more emo~~~
"mood swing mood swing go away.."
vampire bik wanna bcome normal back d..
hv to adjust back her slp time & start a new life in dis long holidays d..
i guess i hv to go rest d..
reali too tired d...
tired tired tired tired...
wanna slp n don think of anythin else d...
slp slp slp slp slp slp n slp...
ZzzZzzZzzzZzzzz.........

- Lovely Monday Morning-

3rd Nov morning..
wat a lovely & beautiful day...
jz now walk out to the balcony...
i love the breeze n view..
Good Morning to every1..^^
work hard & Jia You!!^^
i oso hv to Jia You for my marketing paper d...
1.30pm exam...
din reali memorize anythin yet..
*prayin hard*
hopefully can finish everythin in time..
Jia You!Jia You!Jia You!^^

- Song of The Day -

Song of The Day : "Zhou Hui's Hao Xiang Hao Hao Ai Ni"
reali do like dis song...
should b...i reali do love dis song...
it means alot to me...
a very meaningful song..
highly recommended..^^
2day...3rd of Nov...
will b a memorable day for me..
gained alot..
learned alot...
grown up alot..
I like dis feeling..^^
I'll work harder in future...
face all the challenges and continue fighting for life...
n for Love...
still waiting for the right 1 to appear...
but at least i'm not alone now..
i hv another ppl for me to "merajuk" to d...
feeling so beloved..Xing Fu!^^
I Love my FrenSssSs..^^

gtg d...hv to study for tmr's marketing paper d...@.@
damn lots to study...
last paper d...
Vampire Bik..Jia You!!^^

- Stay Focus -

This 2 days r havin dis mood swing thingy...@.@
suddenly in high mood..suddenly emo...suddenly feeling lazy...
sot sot again d...
now's oredi sunday 12am d lor...
i'm havin my marketing paper on mon 1.30pm...
hv to stay focus d lor...
cannot so "nuar" n "duo luo" d...
don siao siao d...
marketing reali hv lots to study n to memorize..@.@
Vampire Bik, Jia You!!^^
wanna sing wanna emo oso wait till finish marketing paper..
Jia You!^^
now back to marketing notes..
ChaoZzz...


From:
Vampire Bik..^^

- Love Sick -

Love sick...
act i don reali noe wat's the definition n the real meanin of love sick..
haha..
yesterday when i woke up at 5pm..
(yea..5pm..@.@)
i went to the kitchen n wanted to find some food..
but end up drinkin guava juice..
n thanks to the botol..
i cut my finger..it bleed for half n hour+..@.@..
yesterday i broke my own record..
i din talk to any human being face to face n i din c any human being..
but luckily i chat online..or else i think i'm mad d..
mayb i felt lonely yesterday...
suddenly had a feelin dat how gd will it b if i hv a bf now..
haha...if....
well...my fellow frenz will sure say dat u still hv us mer..
hehe...i'm lucky to hv frenz dat cares & loves me lots...
I love u all lotsss too..^^
yesterday dreamt of somethin again d...
dunno whether it's gd or bad...
but it's definately wat i'm afraid of...
"love"...
scars r dere n wounds dat haven fully recovered...
sounds pathetic..
anyway...i hv my BS paper n marketing paper to get prepared...
so i hv to take a gd rest & fight for my tmr's BS paper..
Vampire Bik..Jia You!!!^^
i bcame Vampire Bik d coz i onli c the moonlight n active in the dark..
when the sun rises i ZzzZz..@.@..time terbalilk d..
No doubt after exam sure insomnia..
n dat's me..^^
wanna go slp d...
chaozz...
ZzzZz..


"slp well..rest well...take care of yourself"
from Vampire Bik..(hehe..^^)

- This Night -

This night...
it's a peaceful night...
listenin to music..online chatting with my frenz...
not into the mood of studyin...
tryin to relax...
stay out from stress...
don think...don worry...
calm down...
well...it's oredi 3am d...
but i'm still up...
jz read on articles regarding to insomnia n stilnox...
done some studies on it...
figuring out which type of insomnia dat i've got..
hv to destress when it's time to do so...
Well...thinking of havin a break after the exams...
wanna go cameron highlands...
but still finding ppl to go together...
jz cant find the right person...
some ppl find dat cameron's boring..
some says dat it's not the right timing..
hmm...anyway...if it turns out dat no ppl's interested in goin...
i guess i'll go by myself den...
nd some new space n nice break for wat i've gone thru for the past few months...
not reali a good start for a new life...
i'll travel around.."san san xing"...go wherever i wanna go...
den it's time to go back penang d...
go back to my home sweet home...
my own home dat i've leave for quite some time..
have to go back accompany my parents n my doggie d...
spend my long holidays with my family members and frenz in penang...
it's time to live a new life...
i'll be back soon...
real soon...
no matter wat will happend in future..
no matter how many times i hv to fall n stand up again..
i'll never ever give up and make others worry for me...
i'll be fine n i will...^^
suddenly feelin like hugging someone...
it's so lovely if dere is someone for m e to hug now..^^
too bad my roommate's not here...luckily she's not here too..
or else she'll totally gonna freak out...@.@

Anyway....
Thank you very much for ya concern..
I love you!^^
Miss you....^^
see u soon..^^

- Stress 2 -

I'm here again to distress d..
now it's gonna 7am d..
but i'm still up..
doin accounting past year....
@.@
oo..~~..accounts..@.@..
i guess i'll slp at 9am or mayb 10am..
cant slp...
insomnia..
wanna slp ler..
miss my bed..miss my blanky..
n oso my sweet dreams...
guess wat?i forgotten when's my last sweet dream d...
keep on havin nitemares...
dreams dat scares me..
yesterday i dreamt of i'm so pissed off..
den throwin things...wat kinda dream is dis??@.@
nitemare...=S
forgotten when's the last time i'm angry d oso..
but dat's definately a negative feelin..make ppl feel so uneasy..
it's better to stay calm..(hehe..i like the mood dat i'm havin now..)
i'm kinda worried now...
i'm havin hair fall problem again d..
not enough slp..stress..T.T
so scary...i don wanna b bold soon...
i hv dat little hair onli...
haihz...in a dilemma now ler...
grow or cut my hair??
haihz...
act i prefer short hair...
but.....i wanted to try..duno how will i look with long hair...
will i look more mature?more ladylike?
scared dat my answer will b "BOLD"...@.@
damn scary...

i'll stop here..
continue with accounts past year d..

- Stress -

Now it's exam period...
war begins...
however it's half way throughout the war d..
2subjects down n 3 more to go...
my next war field will b : Accounting!
!@$@$%&*^)&^(*&%#$#$
yea...dat's wat i'll describe for Accounting...
i reali reali @#$$#%$^(*&%^$% Accounting...
but wat to do?
i don hv any choice...
i can onli pass it...
so for my own sake..
i'll hv to telan the Accounting past years + Accounting theories..
soon all the figures and theories gonna burry me alive...@.@

reali super damn stress...
underpressure...
mayb i reali overstress myself d..
i hv to do better than a pass..
(no matter how oso cannot fail..!!)
haihz...
i cant let my parents down...
they r growin older day by day...
they work so hard jz for me n my bro...
they deserve to hv a much more relaxing life..
they do not show their stress in work..
they din show their tireness in giving us a better life...
what can i do for them???
Answer: study harder to score better results...
i don wanna let them down...
i don wanna c their disappointed faces when they c my results...T.T
yea...wat i'm doin now?
cryin...T.T
i'm dat weak...
cant help myself..
tears keep on droppin..
i'm so helpless when it comes to my family...
i love them more than any word can describe..
no matter how i hv to reali study harder...
reali reali reali reali stressssssssss.......

think i gotta distress d...
gonna explode d...
recently sot sot dei d...
mood swing super damn geng...
tmr i'll bubble call my parents...
n tell them..."Daddy, I Love U!".."Mummy, I Love U!"...
"Thank You for everythin...I Love u all..."..
No doubt...for sure...i'll cry again...T.T
reali so damn useless...
haihz...better don cry...cry d it will take me more than 1hour to stop..
jz like now...cryin nonstop again d...
tmr i'll look like a goldfish d...@.@

I love my Daddy Mummy Panda brother a lots lots lots n lots...(infinity)
how can i suppose to continue my life if i lose either 1 of u...
I'll try my best to be a good daughter n a better sis...
make u all feel beloved too..^^
"Neomu Neomu Sarangheayo!!(love pose)"..^^

n of course...to my beloved frenz..
I love u all lots...
u all r the most coolest frenz ever...
support me n care for me so so so much...
although i know i always make u all feel wanna vomit blood..
speechless after listenin to my "long gas" talk...
so sorry abt dat....>.< (sratch head)
reali happy dat u all r there for me when i'm helpless..
feelin so beloved...
thank you for everythin...
i reali reali reali do love u all a lotss....
i'll spend my whole life with u all for sure...
anythin i'll b dere for u all...
24/7 on call o...

now feelin better d lor...
hv to continue with accounts d..@.@
Chaozz...

- I Miss You -

Words that I wanted to say to you..
The words that made me sad in my heart..
"..I miss you..
..I miss you..
..I miss you.."

Where are you?
Why are you not there?
I cant hear you..
I really miss you..
I cant help thinking about you..
I need somebody there for me..
I'm waiting for that somebody..
This sickness and darkness's creeping and haunting me in my dreams..
I need you to be there..

Since that day..
i cant stop the tears that shed in my heart..
misses somebody until forgetten about myself..
If i can meet you again..
I'll hug you tight..
I'll never give up..
I wanna say..
"Baby I'm Sorry.."

..Just like a fool..

..Even if it hurts a little,
My heart cries out every time when I think of you..
Although I only think of you, misses you..
Although you mean everything to me..
In front of you, I can't do anything..
As if i'm not the one for you,
As if this is a moment that will pass and fade away,
I can't seem to be able to take a step closer to you..
What is in your mind?
What do you really want?
You make me restless, you make me tear,
Like a fool, like a child,
Why is it that only my love is slow?
Why is it that only love is painful for me?
As if you're my last,
As if this is the last moment..

If I were to get close to you.
What would you think?
I'm afraid...
Just like a fool..
I can’t even say I love you..
Because i’m afraid of the barriers that comes upon us,
I am afraid of the pain and the saddening days expected after falling in with you.
I know I am a fool..
A fool that is not perfect and can only watch you from far..
Now your heart may look away from me,
and so we could even become strangers..

Till the very end..
I'm still a fool..

..love..

I thought you were my love..
I thought you were my everything..
I believed that you would be my last love and only love..
I believed in your love and believe that it will bring happiness..
Love had hurt me..
Love took away my heart..
Love had teared my heart apart
Being loved by one person..
Giving love to one person..
I foolishly believed that that person would be you..

They said that..
When you cry, you can close your eyes and clearly see that person..
When you forget and ignore, you’ll remember that person even more..
It was a mistake to love you too much, a mistake to love you so much..
Because of you, because of what I love, I suffer from waiting..
To love you more was a mistake, a mistake to desire you so much..
I should have loved you with my whole life and now you’re going to forget me and fade away..

I knew I would love only one person
I knew I would wait for only one person
I knew it all to myself
Because I loved you more, it’s a sin,
Because I missed you more it was a sin
Because of you, I cried because of my sins
Please meet a good person and be happy..
Treat the person good and live happily..

Day by day, though I try to throw you away,
It seems I still have regrets..
Even though separation's scars do hurt..
The more I push forward, the more I can't budge a step

"I Love You..I really really Love You.."
Don't say such things so easily,
Because love cries, it cries....

..Words to express...

..At first we couldn't meet but how is it so different now?
Still you don't know how much I want to keep on meeting you..
You keep me alive so that I can feel you..
Even though we are so different..
our hobbies are different and our thoughts are different..
..I don't want a love that will evaporate away like soap bubbles..
A love that will be felt without words..that is the love I want

I'll try to say the awkward words of love
(I love you, I love you..I really do love you..)
Even on days where I'm tired,
I'll hide my tired expression just for you
In my daily dairies there is nothing but talks of you..
It would be nice if we were happy..

I'm an idiot..
Your unforgettable love..
The final tears are ripping away at my whole heart
Its ripping away..
(I'm Sorry..I'm so sorry..)

I thoughtlessly walk wherever my heart takes me,
It seems I am looking for those that look similar to you
I'm still standing at the same place..
Why are you not there?
..can I not see you?
Are my eyes looking too far?
Still you stay, branded in my heart unmoving.
What do I do? What should I do?
I trusted that I would meet a love like you again
The pain of you branded in my heart is death
What do i do?

I guess I'm exhausted.
Left alone I wander,
looking for the love left in the empty space where you were.
It is so much worse than simply waiting..
I became so similar to you that I copied even your habits..
There is more of you inside me than myself..
now i realise it..
It cannot be you
I am so miserable..
leaving only scars that will never heal
leaving me as my miserable self..
I'm so stressed, what do I do?